2004-05-01 - 10:45 p.m.
You know, gentle reader, today started out as a wonderful day. And now I feel terrible that it was so wonderful.
My favorite freshman flute-player's mom committed suicide. She didn't come home from work Thursday afternoon. She was found today in Gatlinburg. She took some pills and slit her wrists.
Oh my God.
What the hell is wrong with me? Why didn't I notice that Karsen was upset?
I just got off the phone with Ma Soeur not that long ago. I was afraid that maybe she didn't know, but she was actually trying to call me. She's devastated. Stuff like this makes her think of her mom.
It makes me think of her mom, too.
You know, when Gay Manwhore's mom died, I started to suspect that I'm cursed, but now I know I am. Seriously, it seems like everyone around me loses their mom. Terrible things happen to people all around me. God, I'm so sorry, I wish it were me...
What am I suppose to do? What can I say? How many times can this happen?
God, this is really bad. It's so much bigger than just Klint and Karsen and their family. I am really concerned about Ma Soeur. I don't know if she can handle everything. Damn, I'm concerned about myself...
Hello, Mr. Tylenol...
P.S.- I can't stop puking. This concerns me. I wonder if it's because of all the Tylenol I just took. I'm a fucking idiot...
