2004-06-17 - 5:07 p.m.
I am so mad right now it is not even funny.
I mean, I threaten the life of an innocent guitar, that's when you know I'm angry. But at least I am being responsible by not bashing the said innocent guitar over SOMEONE'S HEAD.
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
Why should I be fucking expected to believe in goddam fucking ANYTHING? I KNEW this would happen. It always does.
Okay, let me explain why I despise organized religion and why I have little faith in God.
My mother. She grew up going to church. She went to a Methodist church every Sunday. She went to Sunday school. Her parents taught her how to be a good "Christian." Then, her older sister got knocked up and had to get married. Her family stopped going to church. My mother lost her faith.
My dad. He grew up going to church. He went to a Ukrainian Catholic church every Sunday, at least. He was an altar boy. I know that he went to Catholic school for at least one year, but I assume he went more.
Mommy and Daddy both go off to college. They meet. They elope 'cause their friends are in town. Neither one of them has the balls to tell their families that they got married to someone outside of their denomination. My mother, she had to "convert" to Catholicism in order for my sister and I to be baptised. Then, my dad becomes dead inside, and refuses to go to church anymore. Of course, this is after his mother died, so she wouldn't say anything (not that it really matters anyway... you can't hide from God). And then, my mom has to drag me to the Bible fucking Belt and put me in a Methodist church to be eaten alive by the "Christian" wolves. It's not my fault that I never heard the term "saved" before and didn't understand what they were talking about. But OH NO, I wasn't SAVED, therefore I was GOING TO HELL. I wasn't a Christian because I was Catholic (bull fucking shit).
I may be saying a lot of things that I don't mean, but if you are a "Christian" and you think that Catholics aren't "Christian", YOU ARE A FUCKING MORON.
Dammit, there is nothing I HATE more in the world than IGNORANT PROTESTANTS.
So you know what? If I want to make fun of Jesus, I'LL FUCKING DO IT. Where the HELL was JESUS, huh? Where was God when I needed Him? Where was He when I needed to be protected from His "followers"?
You know, I was in the library yesterday, and I overheard a conversation nearby. It was a woman and two guys. The guys were apparently Mormons, and they were teaching the woman and reading from the Book of Mormon. I heard them talking about God's love and accepting Jesus into your heart. I have never heard anyone talk about those things in a way that I didn't feel like they were just words. You can put it any way you want, but what did those guys really know about God's love?
The thing is, I have no problem with people having a close relationship with God or whatever. In fact, I like hearing about religion. I DON'T LIKE TO BE TOLD ABOUT WHAT I SHOULD OR SHOULD NOT BELIEVE.
Okay, end rant.
